Melissa Taylor offers each Thursday a blog hop. I’ve never been part of a blog hop before so I thought I’d give it a go this week and see what it brings to my readers and blog.
I am a stuffer. According to the book “Unglued”, I am a stuffer. I stuff my emotions and I stuff my emotions until my mind, heart, body and soul can’t take anymore and then I explode. It is not pretty when I explode it is kind of like a volcano and projectile barfing. I am not proud of it. I have dealt with this since college. I just thought that something was wrong with me. Thank God I now know that I am not alone and that there is something to be done. I am dancing like David right now praising God that the truth has set me free!!!!
But, at least now that I’ve begun the “Unglued” study over at Melissa Taylor’s I know what to call it and I can recognize when, where, why, how and what happens when I stuff and explode. In our first week of study we monitored our emotions each day for a week. We wrote down triggers, our emotional and physical state when we experienced an unglued emotion. This allowed me to establish a base-line for myself. So I could see what causes me to stuff and explode each time.
I have to be completely honest, each incident that occurred of me stuffing and cramming in more and more and then exploding was not exactly the same. Which I am happy about because this gives me different scenario’s to work with and to with the grace, mercy of God overcome them.
I have also discovered that I cram mostly because I am a perfectionist. I have a set way that each thing in my life should happen. This not only pertains to myself but to others I ask for help with these duties or task. BUT what I forget to convey when I am asking for help is how I prefer the task/duty to be done. So this leaves myself open for being let down each time. Which causes me to cram in the let down and hurt until I explode.
So I have to say I am learning as I progress through this study. I am identifying things that cause me to cram and stuff and then explode. I am learning to recognize what emotions lead me to explode faster than others.
I would love to hear from you in the comments are you a stuffer? Do you explode? Have you ever taken an online Bible study?
Until Next Time,